6: Walking A Tightrope With Padre Pio

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Walking A Tightrope With Padre Pio

Letters to Ascended Master

St. Padre Pio,

Sunday, July 31, 2011

9: 50 A. M.

Dear Padre,

I just finished writing a spiritual musing (“A New Species Of Man: Homo Luminous”) for my book Old Whore Life, And Other Spiritual Musings, which I will be posting on my blog first, but I still feel spiritually restless; hence, my letter to you this morning.

Before the spirit of this letter carries me away though, let me thank you for coming to my aid the other night. I was beseeched by that sexual consciousness that I am prone to every once in a while (I was living in France in my early twenties and I accidentally opened up the chakra at the base of my spine while meditating one evening and awakened the kundalini energy, and I’ve had issues with my sexual energy ever since; thank goodness I learned to sublimate it through Gurdjieff’s teaching of “work on oneself” and creative writing), and I repeated one of my power mantras (which includes your name) to safeguard me from the temptations of my libidinous consciousness (which in your lifetime you called these temptations “the devil” and now call one’s “demons”), and I felt immediate relief from the downward pull of these unconscious desires; so, thank you.

In all honesty, I had no idea that you would become such a big part of my life when I started my project Healing with Padre Pio. I did not expect for you to be always present in my life. But being one with Holy Spirit, it was only logical that you would be with me all the time because I asked for your help for my spiritual healing; and I’m grateful now that you are always with me because you affect spiritual change in me that would otherwise take a long time to realize without you, for such is my resonance with you!

I did laugh however when you told me that I didn’t have to be so much on my guard that I would be too afraid to live my life. You said my consciousness of your presence in my life was like walking a tightrope, and that I should not be afraid to fall off every now and then; and you know what, that’s exactly how I feel I’m living my life now—on a tightrope!

And I was afraid of falling off the other night. That’s why I called for your help. And instantly I felt your energy drive away my sexual demons. What a relief that was!

Now, perhaps I should explore this whole concept of being assailed by one’s demons. First, what are one’s demons anyway?

My perception is that one’s demons are archetypal energies that have merged to form a matrix of unconscious ego-energy (what Carl Jung called our shadow) that seeks to feed off our conscious ego energies by forcing us to give them expression; hence, the more we give in to our demons, the more power our unconscious self has over us.

In other words, our demons are of our own making; although, we do inherit many of these archetypal patterns from our parents. This is what is meant by the sins of the parents being visited upon the children and grandchildren.

It is not the sins of our parents as such that are passed on to us, but the archetypal patterns of their sins—or, to express it differently, their shadow becomes a part of our shadow, or unconscious self.

So as we resolve our shadow self, we help our parents in their growth to spiritual enlightenment. What a mystery life is, isn’t it Padre? But we just keep plugging along. I think that’s all I want to say for today…

I remain,

Your faithful companion,

Orest

5: Experiencing The Holy Now With My Neighbor

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Experiencing The Holy Now

With My Neighbor

Letters to Ascended Master

St. Padre Pio,

Thursday, July 28, 2011

9: 25 A. M.

Dear Padre,

          I don’t know if I’m reading too much into this, perhaps because I wish it to be true, but I think yesterday you gave me a deeper glimpse into my insight into the hypersynchronistic potential of my life (i.e., approaching the Holy Now) with an experience with my next door neighbor who brought her three children up to the family cottage.

          Her three children are boys, the youngest two, the other six, and the oldest ten. I went bike riding with the two older boys one evening, and the next day the middle boy came over to the house to ask if we could go bike riding again, and we did; and later as I was reading on my front deck, the three boys came over to join me.

          Their mother speaks Italian fluently, and I asked her the day before if she could write in Italian, which she can; so I wanted to know if she could translate a couple of short paragraphs into Italian for my novel Healing with Padre Pio. These were the two questions that I asked you in my poor Italian dialect in one of my spiritual healing sessions.

          She said she would, and I told her I’d bring them over the next day, or day after. I didn’t want to impose on her right away. I wanted her to enjoy her first few days at the cottage with her kids.

          After dinner last night I was on the front deck reading Lost Books Of The Bible, by William Hone (the books that were left out of the Bible; I was reading St. Paul’s Letters that were not included in the Bible) when I heard the boys outside. They had just finished dinner and had come out to play.

          Their two cousins, both girls, had come to the cottage with their mother, just for the day, and they were all excited to be together and wanted to get as much play time in together before the mother and girls left that evening. They had to return early because they were moving into their new house and a lot had to be done. The girls were not happy to be moving to a new neighborhood in Toronto because they would miss their friends.

          In any event Padre, as I was sitting there the thought occurred to me to drop over with the two paragraphs that I wanted translated, because I thought that the two sisters could work on it together and give me the best translation possible; so I got my paper and walked over.

          Of course, I had to explain what I wanted translated, which entailed telling them about my spiritual healing sessions with you; but they weren’t as shocked as I thought they would be. They’re Roman Catholic, with a very deep faith in their religion that got badly shaken when their father died of cancer five years ago. 

The whole family was angry at God because they did not think it was fair for their father to be taken so early, and their anger had not gone away yet, which gave me the opportunity to introduce the concepts of karma and reincarnation that I expound upon in Healing with Padre Pio; and after I told them about how my Medical Intuitive, who is a spiritual sensitive (a modern term for psychic) channeled you for my sessions, one of the girls told me about their parish priest who was also spiritually gifted and who left  his parish church to go to a smaller parish where he was “called” to pursue his gift by doing “healing Masses” for parishioners.

This priest married my neighbor and her husband, who had a near-fatal car accident and who swears that St. Anthony saved his life. In fact, when their priest was counseling them for marriage he saw that St. Anthony was in the room with the young man, and he commented on the Saint’s presence; so the young man told him about his accident and how his mother prayed to St. Anthony to spare his life. This story made it easier for me to share my experience with you, Padre, and it also gave me the opportunity to give the girls a copy of my new novel Keeper of the Flame, which is sure to expand their spiritual horizons.

Now I can make my point, which I hope is not too tenuous (for me, it’s not; but for the reader it might appear that I am trying to pour the ocean into a teacup), and it is this: While standing at the kitchen sink doing the dishes, the mother of the three boys was telling her sister what wonderful neighbors Penny and I were, how lucky they were to have us for neighbors, and she was wondering what she could do for us—and just then I appeared at the door with my two paragraphs for her to translate into Italian!

Coincidence? I think not. I think this experience was proof of what I am beginning to see as the Holy Now—that mystifying concept of “singularity” that Jesus tries to explain to Glenda Green in her book Love Without End, Jesus Speaks: —

 “Due to the one spirit and the highly integrated, synchronistic nature of all existence, there is an aspect of singularity, although it is not a particle or point. It is a function of hypersynchronicity which can compress any or every part of existence to a singular state of infinite potential. Thus, ‘singularity’ as an aspect of separation does not exist. Separation is not honored to that degree” (p. 289).

This is such a deep concept that it is beyond my comprehension, and yet I think that I do perceive it; and my experience with my neighbor was your way of giving me proof that I am approaching the Holy Now—the Eternal Present, which is accessed by hypersynchronstic experiences like my experience with my neighbor when she thought of something she could do for her wonderful neighbors and I showed up at her door at precisely that moment with the paragraphs that I wanted her to translate for me!

          Was existence, hers and mine, compressed to a point of singularity? Did we experience the Holy Now where cause and effect were one? Was this a moment of “perfect stasis,” as Jesus explained it: —

          “The universe is implicitly and explicitly of one piece. At the point of perfect stasis between the implicit and explicit, there is a condition of hypersynchronicity where matter, energy, space, and time move into a ‘no-resistance’ mode of infinite potential. This is not the collapse of matter. This is the synchronizing of it to a ‘zero point’ of perfect stasis. (Stasis, He explained, is the perfect repose of hypersynchronicity.) Understand that ‘zero point’ is not about ‘nothingness.’ It’s a designation of infinity” (p. 287).     

          Isn’t this “designation of infinity” the Holy Now, the Eternal Present, that place where cause and effect are one?

          This is deep stuff, Padre; but I think that these letters have opened me up to a greater flow of Divine Spirit, and my doors of perception have been opened enough for me to catch a glimpse of the Holy Now in the experiences of my daily life! Wow!

          Now that I have shared this with you (it seems foolish that I should speak like this, because you are ever-present in my life and know everything about me; but I will talk about this in another letter), let me share a dream that I had a month or so ago of being so present in the Holy Now that I became a magnet for people. I had such spiritual gravitas in my dream that people couldn’t get enough of me! In my dream, I knew that I was living in the moment—the Holy Now!

          Is the inner starting to manifest on the outer? I think so, but I don’t want to go there yet because that’s too much for me to think about. It terrifies me to know that I’m getting that close to the “singularity”!

I remain,

Your faithful companion,

Orest

4: The Whole World's Asleep

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The Whole World’s Asleep

Letters to Ascended Master

St. Padre Pio,

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

6: 45 A. M.

Dear Padre,

          I finished reading In the Spirit of Happiness by the Monks of New Skete yesterday, my favorite chapter being “What Does Love Look Like,” which I’m going to pursue in another letter or spiritual musing, or both, but this morning I want to share with you my thoughts on something that the Seeker (who is a composite character made up of pilgrims who went to New Skete) said to Father Laurence, the founder of the Orthodox Catholic monastic order of New Skete in Cambridge, New York.

          The Seeker had corresponded with Father Laurence and wanted to meet him in person, so he flew to New York to visit New Skete, and Father Laurence picked him up at the airport. On the drive to the monastery, Father said, “How about telling me a bit about yourself,” which the Seeker did; and when he stopped talking, Father said, “And what have you learned through all of this?”

The Seeker thought before replying. Finally, he said, “I’ve learned that the whole world’s asleep—including myself.”

If I may, I’d like to explore this concept of being asleep to life, which is the dominant theme of all spiritual paths…

Jesus came into the world to wake us up from the deep sleep of life, but you really took me by surprise in one of my spiritual healing sessions when you told me that Jesus came from the future. That blew my mind!

It took a while for this to sink in, and then I asked if you would tell me where the world was headed if Jesus had to come back from the future to wake the world up from its deep sleep. Was the world headed too far off its spiritual course for it’s own good and the Spiritual Hierarchy had to intervene by sending Jesus to troubleshoot with his teaching of salvation? I asked; but you wouldn’t tell me.

You said that had to do with the finer inner workings of the universe, and it was not for me to know at this time; but now I’d like to explore this concept with you of being asleep to life, because I believe the world has veered off spiritual course again and there is a great spiritual intervention happening even as I write you this letter—which was confirmed by the book that Providence brought to my front door by my neighbor, The Only Planet of Choice, by Phyllis V. Schlemmer: the Nine Silent Ones said that the world is in danger of destroying itself. And, if I may be allowed to say this, I believe you are one of the Ascended Spiritual Masters that is intervening to help steer the world back on its spiritual course—hence, your coming to my Medical Intuitive three years ago so we could meet and work on the book Healing with Padre Pio, which will help to wake the world up from its profound spiritual stupor.

But what do I mean by “profound spiritual stupor,” because that’s how I see the world? The Seeker told Father Laurence that his searching had led him to believe that the whole world was asleep, including himself; but I see this sleep as a profound spiritual stupor. Not that there isn’t something profoundly spiritual going on in the world, which I believe there is because I am a part of this new spiritual awakening, but as I told you in one of my spiritual healing sessions, I believe the soul of the world has become much too big for the ego of the world, and something has to give—like grass growing through asphalt!

This is why the world is undergoing a spiritual cleansing with all of these natural catastrophes like earthquakes, tsunamis, violent hurricanes and floods and forest fires and droughts and crop failures and famine and world climate changes that are forcing humanity to wake up to our relationship with our environment. We simply can’t continue the way we are, because we are headed for disaster. This is what you told me these world disasters were all about—waking us up to our spiritual responsibilities!

But why this profound spiritual stupor? What’s the root cause of this deep life-sleep? Why do we refuse to wake up to life?

Padre, I’ve given this a lot of thought in my novels, and especially in my spiritual musings, and I’ve come to the conclusion that we have reached the limits of our ego potential; we simply cannot gorge ourselves any longer on the pleasures of life and expect not to pay a price for our indulgence. This is what the Nine Enlightened Ones in The Only Planet of Choice said. Earth is the only planet of desire, and man has become so greedy with desire that he has forgotten his spiritual purpose in life, so they have to intervene to wake us up to life.

This is why the world is experiencing these natural disasters. It’s the only way to wake the world up from its profound spiritual stupor. In a word, the ego of the world has gone mad and something has to give; but ego is terrified of waking up to our responsibility to the world, and it is doing all it can to stay asleep to life!

Fear is the root cause of our profound spiritual stupor; the fear of having to sacrifice some of that boundless desire and assume our spiritual responsibility to the world we have created, and I can see this profound spiritual stupor whenever I go on Facebook. I cannot believe our preoccupation with the “good life” and thousand and one struggles that this life of self-indulgence entails; and anything that threatens our spiritual stupor, we refuse to acknowledge—like my spiritual musings on “old whore life.”

But you did tell me to speak only to those who have ears for what I have to say, and which I finally understand now; so what am I to do?

I’m certainly not going to stop writing my spiritual musings, because they are a phenomenal way to tap into the higher consciousness of life and awaken the stuperous soul; but if I don’t start attracting readers who resonate with my writing—or, if you will, people like the Seeker who want to wake up to life, I am going to get pretty discouraged. Can you do anything about that? Can you start bringing those people to my books?

You did say that I shouldn’t worry about this, because it was your job and God’s job to bring readers to my books; but “at my back I hear, time’s winged chariot drawing near,” and I’d like to see some fruit for all my labor before it’s too late, if not for myself for Penny’s sake. Penny’s belief in me keeps me going, but some days can be very trying.

Enough whining. Thank you for listening, Padre. I just wanted to let you know that I’m very grateful to you for bringing the book In the Spirit of Happiness into my life. It gave me a wonderful insight into spiritual growth through a community of like-minded people.

Oh, I should mention (not that you don’t already know) that the New Skete monastic order is an offshoot of the Franciscan Order. The Capuchin Order, which you belonged to, is a Franciscan Order; and this is just another one of those little coincidences that have become so common in my life from the day I began my spiritual healing sessions with you!

In fact, so common and in greater proximity to each other are these coincidences happening in my life that I have the terrifying thought that I am approaching what Jesus called the “Holy Now” in Glenda Green’s book Love Without End, Jesus Speaks: “In the state of hypersynchronicity” (the Holy Now), cause and effect are the same. As awareness departs from the sacred point, cause and effect are observed to be complimentary…” (p. 288). Wow! Is this where I’m headed?

I remain,

Your faithful companion,

Orest

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3: As Providence Would Have It

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As Providence Would Have It

Letters to Ascended Master

St. Padre Pio,

Tuesday, July 25, 2011

6: 40 A. M.

Dear Padre,

          I’m writing you a letter, so I must have granted myself permission by doing a household responsibility, which I did yesterday; I finally took my long extension ladder out and removed the dead branches from one of our maple trees that a severe storm last year had broken off, and I also cut four or five other dead branches from the tree. I want to remove the whole tree, which I may do in the fall with my neighbor Tony’s help, because he has a power saw, which will leave one large healthy maple and two small maples in that clump of trees in the center of our front yard. In any event, I see this as a symbolic sign—getting rid of the dead wood in my life!

           Okay, now I can get to the reason I was dying to write to you about—the new book that I came across last week by “chance”!

          As I said in my first letter, once I begin a new book it begins to attract to itself all the relevant material it needs to realize itself, and last week I drove into Barrie to visit my friend at her bookstore and as Providence would have it, I noticed a book on the coffee table where I was sitting that caught my attention— In the Spirit of Happiness: Spiritual Wisdom for Living, by the Monks of New Skete. (I will comment on this book in future letters, because it addresses much of what you had to say to me.)

          My friend was busy placing an order of jewelry with a salesman (she sells more than used books in her New Age bookstore), so I went down the street to Tim Hortons and picked up a coffee for her, the salesman, and myself and sat down in one of her comfortable reading chairs to wait for her to finish her business; and while I waited I browsed the books that she had on the coffee table. One was In the Spirit of Happiness.

          New Skete is an Orthodox Catholic monastery in Cambridge, New York, and as I read the inside cover jacket I was immediately pulled into the book because it excited my curiosity about the monastic life. I had not read any books on the monastic life until I began reading about your life, and for some reason Providence deemed it necessary for me to become acquainted with the spiritual life of a Catholic monastic order; hence my “discovery” of In the Spirit of Happiness, by the Monks of New Skete.

          I had read a book called Hermits, by Peter Francis—with chapters on “The Desert Fathers,” “By Walden Pond: Henry David Thoreau,” “Hermit of the Sahara: Charles Foucauld,” “The Waters of Contradiction: Thomas Merton” (I read his book The Seven Storey Mountain), and other chapters that gave me wonderful insights into the life of a hermit—but In the Spirit of Happiness was an inside look at the spiritual life of a contemporary Catholic monastic order that spoke to the spiritual needs of our time; and as I waited for my friend to do her business, I read the Preface, Authors’ Note, and Chapter One: The Seeker, and I was hooked; so I bought it.

          I’ve only got two more chapters to go, and I’m very grateful for the opportunity to get a look into the spiritually disciplined life of a modern monastic Catholic order because it gave me an insight into Catholicism that I needed to round off my understanding of my old Roman Catholic faith, which for reasons much too deep to explain here, was terribly skewed by my New Age spirituality—but which my spiritual healing sessions with you set straight, and for which I am ever so grateful!

          If I may Padre, let me wax philosophical a moment about my relationship with my old Roman Catholic faith and my relationship with you, which came as a COMPLETE SURPRISE to me. But strangely enough, you did tell me in my last spiritual healing session that you and I had planned on the Other Side before we came into the world to work together to help raise the spiritual consciousness of the world, but I had a long journey to make before I was ready to meet you through my spiritual sensitive last year! My God, what a journey it was just to get to the point where we could work together on my book Healing with Padre Pio!

          The point I want to make is that my relationship with my Roman Catholic faith grew out of a misunderstanding of the spirituality of this great religion founded upon the teachings of Jesus Christ, and I had to go through hell to find my way out of the labyrinthine nonsense of the false premises of my Roman Catholic faith (like eternal damnation in hell, to name the most psychically damaging false premise)—and I came out bitter and angry at Christianity. So bitter and angry that I needed the healing grace of a Roman Catholic Saint who had suffered the holy wounds of Jesus for fifty years to heal my wounded Christian soul! And I thank you for that, Padre.

          As I said in my novel Healing with Padre Pio, we began with the premise of healing my wounded Christian soul, but we ended up healing the wounded soul of Christianity, and finally the wounded soul of the world with the healing grace of your consciousness of “all-knowing and all seeing.” I simple proved to be the medium for your healing grace, and I feel privileged to have been, and continue to be of service to your mission of serving life from the Other Side.

          Padre, you did say in one of the books that I read on your life that you would do more for humanity from the Other Side (actually, you used the word heaven) than you could do while you were in your suffering body, and given the testimonials that I read of all the miracles that people from all over the world have attributed to you, it seems that you were right—not to mention what you are doing with me! But just what are you doing with me? Let’s look at this for a moment…

          I believe you are allowing me to offer the world the very UNIQUE PERSPECTIVE of a Roman Catholic Saint who has transcended the inflexible doctrine of Roman Catholicism and realized spiritual ascendancy into the Soul Consciousness of all knowing and all seeing, thereby allowing the world to see that all spiritual paths come from what you have symbolically revealed to me as the River of God that flows into different streams and which we impede by placing our “rocks” of misunderstanding into our individual stream, and it’s your duty in your service to God to help us become aware of our spiritual impasses so we can continue on our journey home to God; but, of course, you know very well how Roman Catholics are going to respond to this.

This is going to be controversial, but as you said in one of my sessions when I brought this up, “controversy is good because it causes dialogue”—and the world is in desperate need of a new dialogue on Christianity, which Bishop John Shelby Spong is trying to initiate with books like Why Christianity Must Change or Die, and Jesus for the Non-Religious. I know my book Healing with Padre Pio is a novel, but I had to couch my spiritual healing sessions with you into a story of fiction, because that’s the only way I could have the freedom to explore our process together.

Controversial or not then, I’m writing you these letters for personal reasons, and what happens thereafter will be up to Providence. I’ve since come to see that my life is choreographed from above, and all I can do is play my little part and hope for the best; so whether people like this privileged glimpse into your life as an Ascended Spiritual Master or not, it’s not really for me to say. All I can do is work out the thoughts and ideas that I am given to express creatively through my writing, and I know that this epistolary project is going to prove very, very satisfying.

Before I close this letter, I’m going to make a personal request. I know from my reading that we have to be specific in our requests from Holy Spirit, and I’m going to be specific in my invocation to you (being an Ascended Master, I know that you are one with Spirit): please let my published books begin to bear financial fruit soon, because it’s causing Penny and myself a great deal of anxiety waiting for all the good karma that we have put into getting my books written and published to reap some financial benefits—my latest book being Keeper of the Flame, which came out last month, and My Unborn Child which came out last summer. 

I know that you told me in one of my spiritual healing sessions that it would take three years for the ripple effect of my writing to show remunerative return, but it would be so nice to see some definite signs soon because all of this waiting is hard on our nerves.

Last night we picked up a coffee at Tim Hortons and went for a long drive to talk things out (we do this often just to air our head), and we discussed the possibility of having to move back up north into our triplex (we have two units rented, which go towards the mortgage on the house; we used to live on the top unit) and sell our house down here in Georgian Bay to finance our retirement; but as realistic as I am and would concede to the idea, I don’t want to, and neither does Penny. So Padre, if you would, please intercede for us, because I honestly don’t know what else we can do to make it happen.

I pour my heart and soul into my writing, and Penny pours her heart and soul into editing, formatting, and getting my books out to our publisher, and then doing book trailers and promoting and marketing them wherever she can on the Internet—after her work day and on weekends!

Penny’s invaluable to my writing, and I don’t know what I would do without her; but we are getting on in years, and we are getting concerned. I only wish I did not have to have a bypass operation three years ago. It put a serious damper on our finances, and we’re hoping that one of my books connects before our savings run out; so, again, please see what you can do to remove those obstacles that are keeping my books from connecting with the readers that I know are out there waiting to read them.

I have a lot of trust in you Padre. Given what I experienced with my spiritual healing sessions, I believe in you; but Penny hasn’t quite rapped her head around my relationship with you yet, and I have to be patient. She is my heart and soul, and my love for her only grows deeper with each new day, and the last thing I want is to burden her with the anxiety of financial struggle in our old age. Let it happen Padre, before it’s too late.

I remain,

Your faithful companion,

Orest

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